Here they go again

I'm back to moaning to you. I miss my daddy, I miss him so much it makes me cry. Yes I do cry. Just recently I was thinking of how I lack a stable male influence in my life -thank God I'm a girl so it doesn't make me wanna be gay. I thought about it, family, friends ; nada.
I have five half brothers who live in different parts of the world, I have lots of male cousins, couple of uncles but basically no contact to them. Everyone is busy with their various lives, doing this and that. I say hello, drop a facebook message here, but nothing gives. They reply msgs, say hello, and after a while just fade out. Busy, preoccupied, e.t.c..
Then comes friends. When I think of male friends, it breaks my heart to say that 95 percent of mine have wanted to get with me one way or the other. Its so hard to find a male friend of mine, who wasn't interested in getting with me, one who trully wanted to be my friend. This saddens me more than I can express.
As an only child who has now lost her father, I wish with all my heart that I had some big brother, or uncle, or friend to lean on. I am single if you're wondering, Been single for 3 months but that's the least of my problems.
People come and go, but sad as it may sound, I'm beginning to think guys are leavers. My daddy has left me-though I understand he did not wish to die, my exes have hurt me in some way- though I had to do the physical leaving, my brothers have never really been there, neither have the uncles or cousins and the friends have failed me as true friends.
There was one who made me his little sis and at the end things got topsy turvy because he wanted to be a lover. There's a second who made me his sis, but maybe I'm more than he bargained for, maybe he just liked the idea, but has no idea this young lady NEEDS a big brother, and therefore falls short, because he can't really be an available shoulder for her.
Its is after all this, I've come to the conclusion that male species are leavers. Maybe its too much to wish for a male friend who has my back completely, no strings attatched, But I believe that someday, I will find the bone of my bone and flesh of mine, who will fill that male void.
I love the ladies in my life, and I love my saviour.
I have brooded over my lack, but I am thankful for all I have.

L'Chaim

Hiatus

Hello blogger!
Its been forever! Well about 3 years to be precise. Last post was in 2008 and its 2011, its been ages! I have missed blogging, not to say I never blogged the whole time. I infact created two other blogs during this long haitus, fortunately or unfortunately they never quite survived either - suffice to say I can't even remember what they were called- however, I'm back, back to stay.
Blogger was good to me, very theraupetic , allowing me to vent( also twitter), to express my feelings, to brood and I even get to make friends while I'm at it.
Now I'm back, and I'm redefining this blog.
Publishing name used to be mimi, now its feefey.
It used to be titled Jesus'gurl now its L'chaim! Quintessentially! I also changed the theme and 1 or two things.
So we'll be seen more of each other

L'Chaim!

I'm around...

hello everybody,
its been soo long, im very well thank you pple, thank you favored girl. well i am literally chillin. i hope i update more often now.
peace..

...at the beginnin

.. i speak fluent german , yeah toll!

... my fave songs at the moment
-bleeding love; leona lewis
-with you; chris brown
-tatoo; jordin sparks
-miss u die; p square

...sweetness didn't leave afterall
makes me happy ....really

... i love the lord
and he's teaching me faith and patience

hmmmm

hello niggas and niggarettes..lol

i've so missed blogger. how've yall been. im fine. hmmm so much 2 say.
By the way happy nu yr.

......so where do i start, at the beginning rite?

i'm sorry for me

this is a real long story, a sad one at that, lost sweetness. i'll fill y'all in l8r. by the way im down with malaria. ttyl

busy bee

hey pple,

how's it goin, i have some few minutes to spend 2day. i've been a bit busy and i havent just been bothered enuf to update.

i was tops in my class yaaay!, got a scholarship of some sorts.

i visited the capital state, abuja' it was fun, couple of places, great company, good weather, i enjoyed myself.

i found myself a new sweetness,mmm, makes me happy, my lips are sealed,

lotta luv

sup y'all

hello lovely pple,
i've been soo friggin busy, tryna keep strait aa's, it was my birthday last month. i've been okay, i speak real good german now and lots of things have happened..ttyl
tschuus

zu wenig, zu spat

Come wiv me, stay the night
u say the words but boy it dont feel right
what d'you xpect me 2 say
you take my hand ,usay u've changed
u say the words but boy u know ur beggin don't fool me
cos to you its just a game
so let me on down
cos time has made me stong
i'm startin to move on
i'm gonna say this now
your chance has come and gone


cos u know its jus a little too late
a little too wrong
and i can't wait,
u know all the right things to say
u know its jus t00 little too late
you say you dream of my face,
but you dont like me
u just like the chase
so be real it doesn't matter anyway
u know its jus too little too late

stepped in

hello everyone,
how r y'all doin, hows life, hows the weather, all in all hope ya'll are doin good. i haven't been around cos i've been busy(and a little lazy). i'm fine, my pple are fine. happy easter in advance.i dont know what t0 talk about; i have like tiny random issues runnin thru my mind sooo.. ok well, so i'll start :from where we stopped

• valentines day, nothin much, was just at home, wiv my t.v. A day after, i went out wiv a couple of friends including josh. we were supposed to see a movie but they picked me late so w jus hat nando's and smirnoff and jus talked and chilled. i had fun.(by th way that was the last time i saw him, ask me why, i'v e no idea)
• school was fine, my girl and i formed a new ritual of havin ice cream every friday, jus chillin and talkin girl talk. we go straight from school since its close. By the way i lurv ice cream, did u know, ice cream makes u happy? sure it does, like other things like, choclate or maybe cake dont mind me i'm simply elongating the list.
• we had our european film week, t'was fun, we saw german movies, italian movies, spanish movies and french movies. all in all i think the italian ones were the best and they were very nice, we had white wine and pizza(which i totally love, and it probably made my judgement biased). it was fun all the way.
• And then there was laspapi's play , i got free tickets, yeah he gave me tickets 4 me and my girls.(Thanks again laspapi). the play was lovely, witty and made so much sense, nodding and laughing. Stella is defiately a superb actress. And the other characters who were as well lovely to watch. my girl and i adapted the word "inconsequential" which in german translates "macht nichts". Two thumbs up to laspapi.
  so there it is, in summary.catchya l8r. tschus